Thinking about is since last night, having Nick back home has actually been extremely comforting to me. I was so apprehensive about picking up actual ashes. I know it sounds gruesome and graphic, but the thought of flesh and bones having been disintegrated made my stomach roil. I know that it’s because I haven’t been exposed to the concept of cremation in my upbringing, but I couldn’t help myself. I kept thinking about it.
Well, Nick’s cedar box is really beautiful. It has name his sweet name carved into a beautiful nameplate. The cedar wood is so smooth, it glows and it’s the color of Nick’s fur. I just love that.
We’re looking for the best place to set his ashes. Somewhere that it won’t spook our guests, but also somewhere that isn’t hidden away. Suggestions?
Today has been a good day so far. I haven’t cried or had tears well up. Let's hope it lasts because my eyes and nostrils have become DESERT DRY from the crying and residual snottiness!
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I left a comment on your Ashes to Ashes post regarding the ashes but it sounds like the box you have now is a beautiful tribute to your beautiful boy.
And I CAN'T believe Nick's original "family" would have left him behind that like with a bag of apples. SO CRUEL! But lucky for you guys to get such a special lover boy. He was meant to be with you and spend the rest of his life surrounded by love. You gave each other a special gift.
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