Spoke to S tonight. She's thinking of staying with M a little longer. M has been crying a lot since Laila's birth on Monday. She's very sad and S doesn't want to leave her just yet. When S was born our mom also became very depressed. She cried a lot and was so very sad. It was hard to see her that way. I had to take care of S many a nights because Mom had taken her medication to sleep better. It was tough to witness. I hope it's not that bad for M.
Gosh, I just wish M would just let me in. I've tried to reach her in so many ways and she just won't let go of her grudge. I'd love to be there for her just like S is there for her. It's so frustrating. All I'm left with is the ability to just wish her the best and pray for my nieces' health. I have two beautiful little nieces I've never met because M is stubborn and insists on shutting out any opportunity of even the possibility of a happy sisterhood. So very, very sad.
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Do you think it's possible that maybe adding to M's sadness is that she now has 2 daughters, who will undoubtedly be the closest of sisters, and she is now realizing she missing out on that relationship with you? Just a thought. I don't know what the background is between you two, but the thought occured to me that maybe she's just missing you. Maybe she's just too proud, or stubborn, to make a move toward rebuilding the relationship?
You don't even know the half of it! I'll go into it later since I have beers and fish tacos waiting for me down at the beach!!!
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